Forecast: the first tendrils of light at daybreak Where is the monster I made out of you? The slimy shadows I cast on you? I've built you up so much in my head The proverbial monster under my bed. A terrifying menace A salivating savage I have the bite marks to prove it... I've spent so long running, escaping your breath on my neck Finally you've caught up to me With dazzling smiles with teeth and not fangs Not sharp talons but perfectly manicured hands The booming roar I waited for, quelled by soothing voice It's funny, this frightens me more I am no longer sure who I am fighting and what for The big, bad evil that haunted me all those nights was Soft , human, just like me You bleed just as I bleed You've got the scars to prove it. And how I want you to bleed. To sink my teeth where it hurts the most and bring you to your knees in an heroic clash between good and evil But there are no foes or heroes Just two...
Forecast: chilling breeze "Your words are so refreshing" , she's saying to me. Refreshing? It takes me a minute to sink in before I whisper, "It's funny, they never leave that way" Instead they storm off in a huff Of tears and dust slamming the door off of its hinges. Or wander away, dazed and confused with nowhere else to go. But I see they've found a home in you. These aren't the words I kissed goodbye, sent packing in the night. Somewhere in their fearful journey, across mountain and valley They were washed clean. And arrived in your hands fresh and safe to drink. It is a wonder they made it all this way, a kind of relief Knowing there are traces of me uncaged, uninhibited... Soaring, flying free. Infinite in the ways I am limited, to dream, to reach, to seek.
"I tell ya what Sam, I think you're plenty inspirational when you're not trying to be..." The past few weeks I've struggled to share a poem I wrote. Over and over again my hand hovered over the send button and I talked myself out of it. It's not pretty, or flattering in any light. And even though I don't completely believe it, there must be a little part of me that does. You know, the part that wrote it... But somehow I got it into my head that I was meant to inspire others with my words. But it feels like a lie, the need to present myself as well-adjusted all the time. I think about the nights I soaked my pillow and when I was all out of cry, I'd write. Nothing pretty, nothing that made you smile. Pain wrung me dry, but it also inspired me. I reckon you need this too, my personal broken. Unsure, uncertain, insecure, scared out of my mind, lonely...so very lonely, weak, disappointed. A hand to squeeze in the dark if I cou...
For whatever reason My best intentions were not enough to save us For whatever reason We have only a short time on this earth Before we turn into dust For whatever reason My meticulously laid plans all became a bust For whatever reason A 30 year-long grudge died suddenly without a fuss.
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