A Little Bit Of Sunshine

Maybe I deserve more than the change That falls out of your pocket After you've spent your best.  Maybe I deserve more than the charred remains left  After you've wined and dined the rest.  Maybe I deserve more than half-promises.  For there's always a hint of love  on the tip of your tongue.  But it never reaches full maturity It always stays young.  Maybe I deserve a love that is solid and whole.  One I can hold with both hands Not evaporate like a block of ice.  Maybe I don't have to be cooler.  Maybe I don't have to try Breaching my own boundary lines For a love that was never mine. 

You're the picture of humility  and self-proclaimed righteousness  We love-starved lovers can't help but fall into your stare Even when it starts to resemble a snare We cocoon ourselves into your web That once felt like a safety net I don't think you even know you're doing it  Your venom is sweetness  Your poison disguised as treatment  for another ailment  Your love is different from the others It doesn't run out, it smothers  I become a mould of your worst insecurities You are low-hanging fruit  from an empty tree. 

"Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May." - William Shakespeare  May brought with it  the scent of rosebuds And lilies.  Lavender skies and light jackets Sweet tea packets.  I lifted my pinkies in the air and clinked cups with the ones I loved.  But the tea didn't stay warm The rainbow clouds dissolved  as quickly as they formed And the roses bore thorns.  I learnt there is a time for everything I swore I was above.  Fear, betrayal, even love I learnt that beauty sat along the razor edge of pain.  That a harvest was a bloody affair Being pulled out by the roots and skinned alive.  It is a terrifying thing to survive.