A Little Bit Of Sunshine

While I've always appreciated the art of filmmaking, I no longer identify as a cinephile. What started out as a healthy interest, analysing dialogue and characters, quickly turned into a superficial fixation with what was or wasn't cinema .  Watching movies is a social hobby. We watch movies to speak about them, share them with others and maybe write a quirky caption on Instagram. But because it is a social activity, when you're a cinephile, your opinion on movies (whether you're aware of it or not) is largely influenced by what other people think. I felt like I had to like certain kinds of movies to prove that I was intelligent or interesting enough. My list of favourites was a curated, bald-faced lie. But I didn't know this. Until I asked myself... what do I genuinely enjoy? What are the movies that give me joy, that I can watch over and over again?  They don't need to be 'smart', layered or critically acclaimed. They just have to mean something to ME ...

  And pots fit into each other in neat little stacks Each one part of a matching set Doing what they were meant to do Who could conceive of that?  But we struggle to make space  for each other To be a unit, thinking for the other's best If we could be like pots... Empty and selfless  Existing only to serve others